Available for Pre-order: Domino Effect: A Dark Novel

Domino Effect CoverDomino Effect, is a dark novel showing a family in despair after a loved one dies by suicide and the effect one person’s decision has on those left behind. The story is fictitious, but the emotions and some of the scenes are based on the author’s real experiences.

Publication Date: 7 January 2019
Length: approximately 334 pages
Format: eBook (currently mobi, but epub will also be available later)
ISBN: 978-0-9943362
ASIN: B07KMV7H83
Availability: Exclusive to Amazon until 7 April 2019
Price: $3.99

Announcement

I am super excited to announce that my latest book will be released on 7 January 2019 and is available for pre-order from Amazon.

50% of all proceeds from pre-order sales will be donated to Beyondblue in Australia.

Although my previous publications have been for young readers, this book is for the mature audience. Themes include suicide, depression and grief. The book includes a bonus section on suicide awareness.

Please help me support suicide awareness by purchasing a copy of the book and/or sharing this post.

Thank you.

Full Description:

Owen has taken his own life. His family has no idea why.

Kirsti, his twin sister, is overwhelmed with feelings of confusion and finds herself disconnected from everyone and everything–her family, her friends, her job, her life. She cannot sleep, cannot think, cannot stand the way people tiptoe around her. But it is the images that she cannot let go of.

Jenny, his mother, is consumed with guilt and fear. She didn’t see the signs and didn’t know her son needed help, so what kind of mother does that make her? And what about her two surviving children? Not to mention the darkness that has enveloped and threatens her family. That scares her more than anything.

Tim, his older brother, is angry. He wants to be as far away from his family as he can get. But his mood has changed, he no longer cares about anything. He finds solace in the bottom of a bottle and in bags of illegal tablets.

Domino Effect, is a dark novel showing a family in despair after a loved one dies by suicide and the effect one person’s decision has on those left behind. The story is fictitious, but the emotions and some of the scenes are based on the author’s real experiences.

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Here are links to the three main stores:

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Are you having thoughts of suicide?

Recently, I attended a seminar through my work place. I work for a Government organisation and they are always wanting us to ‘brush up’ on one procedure or another so imagine my shock when I discovered the seminar was about suicide awareness.

It is a shock to be sitting with a couple of dozen other people, several who you know well, and are confronted with a subject that is close to your heart. As soon as I realised what would be discussed, I welled up. The presenter, used to watching people’s actions and looking for ‘signs’, did not miss my instant reaction to her words. We were presented with video recreations of potential warnings … and all of them slapped me across the face and made my heart pound quicker. I watched as the mother on-screen missed her son’s call for help. Just like I did in real life. Is it any wonder I couldn’t speak, could hardly hold the tears back, was unable to stop the trembling?

The presenter announced a break and everyone left the room, except me. I was not able to speak aloud, so I whispered the fact that I had lost a son to suicide. Of course, she had already guessed that by my reaction. She thanked me for letting her know and told me I was free to leave the seminar, if I wanted to. I didn’t need to think about it.

I wanted to stay!

But I needed her to know why I would not be able to participate in active feedback within the seminar. She understood that I was struggling and asking me to speak would be my undoing. So, the seminar continued and I sat frozen faced and trembling in the middle of lots of people, but I felt as if I were struggling through a major upset … totally alone.

By the time the seminar was finished I was considered to be a qualified Care Assistant for the workplace. In truth, I spent most of the time focused inwards dealing with my own demons. Yes, I would be able to recognise (now) if someone was suicidal. And, yes, I would be able to ask the all important question, “Are you having thoughts of suicide?”. And, yes, I would be able to look after that person until help was at hand. I never needed the seminar for any of that. I’ve spent over five years learning the facts about suicide myself. But now I have a certificate to confirm it.

The reason I’m writing this post is because I thought I was doing OK. I thought I had moved passed the tears, but those few hours proved I am not doing as great as I thought and have not moved on from losing my son. I guess there will always be moments in my life that will bring the past slamming back into full focus. I suppose I’m better equipped for those moments now but it doesn’t mean they will be any easier to deal with.