Some weeks ago, I said I had approximately 10,000 words to write before reaching the end of Mirror Image. Yes, well, that was an understatement! I’ve written over 17,000 words since then and I would feel comfortable saying I still have at least 10,000 words to go.
Anyway, however many words are left to write I can tell you that the next scene is the first for the last day of the story. A lot is happening and the main characters are at breaking point, which is exactly where they should be at this stage of the story. I still have to push them a bit more and then … well, I can’t tell you … but soon after that “moment”, the story will be wound up.
Writing this story has been good for me – for two reasons.
First, it has helped me sort out my own emotions. I’ve always used writing as a form of escape and this story must be the best example of that. This is a story that delved into my personal space and into the inner most fears of my mind. From that came a much needed release that feels so positive and right.
Strangely, I just read the quote on my desk calendar:
For every feared thing there is an opposing hope that encourages us.
– Umberto Eco
The fear that I carry has been pushed into a deeper hole. The opposing hope shines brighter with each day. I can see that now and I want to help other people realise that too. This book can do that. I know it!
Second, the positive feelings I have about the story has been a motivation to write. I want this story to be told and I want people to read it and learn. This is important to me, which means I’m driven to keep writing. Considering I gave up writing at the beginning of this year, that is another positive step.
The writing will not stop when I’ve finished Mirror Image either. I am already thinking of my other unfinished projects in a new light. I recently mentioned somewhere that the first million words are just practice. Well, I’ve done my practice words and have moved into real writing and that feels good.
I’d starred this post to comment later as your blog is still blocked at work. Your motivation is inspiring. I hope you get to the end soon.
I’m feeling a bit of determination, myself, at the moment.
I’m making steady progress. That’s all I can really ask for and I’m happy, which makes a huges difference to my motivation.
I’m glad to hear of your determination, Benjamin. I would like to read more about your writing on your blog. 🙂