What Name Was That?

Today, I had a “first time” experience that felt quite different to what I had imagined it would. Someone asked me to sign their copy of the anthology!

If this had happened through email or a website, I would have been fine about it, but this was a real life experience and it threw me off balance. My first reaction was one of embarrassment. I still feel shocked by that. The embarrassment was quickly followed by anxiety.

Isn’t that the weirdest thing you’ve ever heard?

I always thought that I’d feel honoured by such a request. In all honesty, I was honoured, but on this occasion the other emotions were stronger. And I know why!

I’m a shy person. In real life I don’t share much about myself freely. I certainly don’t advertise the fact that I write. And having someone confront me in a very public place with something I tend to keep private was a bit of a shock.

That accounts for the embarrassment, but what about the anxiety. Laugh if you want to, but I was worried about the actual signing of the book. I had to practice first as my pen name is not my real name. I can sign my real name without thought, but it felt foreign to sign Karen Lee Field. It felt strange and it looked strange.

However, the signing is done and the book has been returned to its owner. Now I can let those rotten emotions go and bask in the good.

I signed my first book today! I honestly cannot believe it.

6 thoughts on “What Name Was That?”

  1. Congratulations on the request. Bet it feels good now you’ve done it. I haven’t had a chance to read my copy yet, but will get to it.

    Also, nice work on the new theme. This is the first time I’ve seen it because the only way I can usually read your posts are through my RSS reader at work because your blog is blocked from work.

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  2. I feel your stress, Karen! I’ve had to sign a few books now in various circumstances. Often when friends or family get a copy and insist I sign it, but also in a bookshop and at a writer’s festival. The thing that stresses me out the most is that I always seem to sign differently! I have a signature for credit cards and such, but don’t seem to have nailed my “autograph” yet. All those poor people with varying examples. One day no one will believe that it was really me!

    Anyway, congrats on your well deserved celebrity.

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